My Poems

The Scarlet Ribbon

The scarlet ribbon
Lays across my arm
Covering all it sees

My heart beats to its
Gentle movement
Unison in rhythm and motion

The skin sighs relief
Stained by its glory
Stained by its colour

Red like the roses
Colour of love
Same feeling, same ache

Relaxing, contemplating
Like a junkie
Addict; need the feeling

The scarlet ribbon
Lays across my arm
Covering all it sees

People

You come and you go
Your Prozac smiles
And your Morphine tenderness
Like ants up a tree
Line up, form a queue
Everyone of you fall down
As I pour on the water, destroy you all

Empty stares, Empty minds
Fill it up; fill it up, more space for you lies
I pass you all by, you all seem so low
Yet I feel the lowest
Like paper in the wind
Never know which way to turn
Leave me alone; let me be

I try to catch up; you all walk away
Feel like the outsider, Alien being
You say try to be someone
Yet you are all the same
Same fate, routine, agenda
No escape, no win, no surrender
All lose

My Reflective Self

Haven't I seen your face before?
You're the one who brought me all this pain
All my weakness, my lies, my scars
I spit on you, turn away , be gone

Haven't I seen your face before?
You're to ugly to be seen, you ugly beast
You freak, deformity, sniveling coward
I curse you, turn away, get lost

Haven't I seen your face before?
You're the one who erodes my soul
Erodes my confidence, my inner joy
I hate you, turn away, you ruin me

I still see you facing me
No one cares for you, knows you at all
Until we meet again -
My reflective foe

Down All The Way

From the moment you are born
You make your way to the grave
Ultimate aim - at least someone to mourn
Shed first tear, life noone can save

Life rapidly destroyed, peeling away
Years of hurt welling up inside
All ready to explode one day
Always growing, the never sinking tide

Finally, ending is seemingly nigh
Thats it, youve now had your lot
All you can do is sit down and cry
Life going one way, the solitary burial plot

Evalasting flight

Flying high, i can see for miles around
Look down on myself all peaceful and calm
For once in my life i dont feel any dread
This time i am finally dead

Racing round, so free, do what i want
I can hear you crying, whisper my name
I will never be far, never forget you my dear
Go on, live happy theres nothing to fear

Ill be now here for all eternity
Be waiting for that day to come
For when you come to your resting place
We can then fly in the evalasting space

Scream of Self Pity

Oh you say how things will work out
Guaranteed a life, money, love and happiness
But all I can see is blackness, bleakness - forever darkness
Everyway I turn, straight into a brick wall
A diseased flower - the garden of life
Bleeding, dying promises leak from your filthy mouths
Like stale dribble on the old, weak, meek – already dead
Cling to your words, please do - cling to your hopes for me
Ill be silent here, like my soul – Already swinging from the gallows
I’m no mystic, but the future seems so clear
What’s the point, what’s the point, I don’t care
Never cared anyway….
Hatched form my cocoon
Enshrouded, protected me for what?
The pain soon fell upon me
Want to escape, hibernate forever
Need to be wrapped up, protected again
All I see is hate; I have so much of my own
Hate for you, hate for me – suppose it’s my fault
I’m my own creation, my own devastation
Life is what you make it you say – well two decades wasted
What the hell can I do, Frustration wells up
Bleed my emotion all over the floor
I sit and cry, sit and sulk, call me a baby
I don’t care, I DON’T CARE AT ALL

Why am I like this?
What am I?
What is this feeling?
What shadows fall over me?
What darkness engulfs me?
What world do YOU preach?
What world do YOU live in?
What can I do?
What is this scream I keep silent?
Why do I fail?

Reapers Journey

Cold to the touch
Clasping at me
Gasping for air
Grasping at me
Oh this isn't fair

Shadow in a cloak
Waiting for me
Taking me away
Reaching for me
My final day

Pointing finger of doom
Come take me
Leave you behind
You want me
Destroying my mind

Releaser of my soul
You've got me
I feel so light
You take me
Flying like a kite

Where are we now
You've brought me
The palace in the sky
You leave me
The valley, after I die

In eternal peace now
The place for me
Live here forever
Solitude for me
Until we again be together

Apocalyptic Vision

These images flash before my very eyes
When days were long, joyful and free
When we used to spot shapes clouding the skies
Used to run round merrily, climb every tree
We didnt care what the future would bring
We just lived for the day, smile, sing

If only we could go back, relive just one day
We could be all together, love and be happy
Just take a breather, remeber how we used to play
Though how hard we try, it will never be
Now its all grey, dull and overcast
I just wish those days would forever last

These fresh images fall in to my eyes
A reign of darkness, hurt and despair
No one can stop it, noone ever tries
We're all doomed together now, who now gives a care
I can see the future, all burning, all fire
This world we now, the funeral pyre

So come now and give a cheery grin
We might as well go out on a positive vibe
We're ruined, lost it, commited all sin
Savages, vanquished, like an ancient tribe
I look to the sky, oh how we can be proud
Only one shape now, the big mushroom cloud

Earthquake

Earthquake
Tearing up a delicate path
Destroying all; shows no fear
Lava flowing
Melting, suffocating
Erupting from below
The deep white canyon
Sprawled across skin
Hiding place for hate
Eruption; the release
Land, scarred for life
Hate subsides; shame the survivor

This is Hull

Walking through the streets
So diseased and so much hatred
Once was gold now is lead
Once was soft now is dead
Once was human now is a wreck
Junkies lie, so high yet so low
Beggars stare through squinted eyes
“Spare 20p” “lends us some change”
Filthy paws grabbling at the dirt
The scent in the air – pollution at its best
Fish, Sewage, the people too
Town centre blues, traffic hell
Boy racers encircle like guards
Tracksuit warriors on parade
Steal what they need
What they don’t too
Oh what a wonderful place to be
Only amusement, big issue count
Lines of pound shops litter the streets
Scum file in like its life or death
This is Hull, take it or leave it
I can’t wait till I leave it

Immortal shadows

Immortal shadows; never die
Don’t give into the strength of light
Blanket me with your comfort
Keep me safe now; Hide me away

Bitter tears line featureless face
Cascading torrent shows no fear
Your source, the fountain of pain
Etched deep with the caverns of me

Darkness come, enshroud me tight
Alone, for all time eternally
A lost being floating further away
Until death will take me over

Everything is death; death is all
Even the most beautiful rose must decay
Whither away, grounded to dust
The soul disperse, conquered, the black hole

Immortal shadow, never fail me
Stay with me all through this night
Smother me, take me; don’t wake me
Keep me in my incubating state

Light breaks in, bruise the skin
Shows the rot, decay; putrefaction
Pale and destroyed, falling to pieces
Mind so numb, body is aching

Markings like ancient rune stones
Show the symbols of the night
Like carved rock yet only me
No hiding, too bright is the sun

Yearning for the fresh decay
When light fades, its purple glow
Then I ‘m reunited; the shadows oh dance
Hide me, disappear, feel something again

Fade Away

Fade away to nothingness
Fade away to emptiness
My soul is in extinction
Feel like I can't go on
Being who I am

Fade away from view
Fade away to dissapear
You won't see me anymore
Won't stain your vision
Corrode your fragile mind

Fade away into darkness
Fade away into the mist
Where the fog blanket sme
Keeps me cold in the heat
Where I'll be forever more

Ancient Youth

Take a look at yourself
You wrinkled old fool
Trying to act like you just left school
A gallon of cheap odour
covers the stench of your cheaper alcohol
Try to mix in, be cool
I pity you, you make me wince
Look in the mirror go on
What do you see; a donkey
with a clowns face, not real
Painted there, just like the inside
Of you
Plastic body, soul, whole
You can never be what
You try to be
A halucination
Faux pas creation
You've had your day
Now go away
Be who you are, sit alone
I spit on you all
Disgusted......

Thinking

Moonless night
Sit - Stare at the wall
It doesn’t look back
Drifting downstream
Dark current drags me down
Bruised by the rocks on the way
Alone, My cries echo loud
Yet I can't hear a sound
Look at the ceiling from my bed
Might as well be my coffin
The room, the funeral plot
The door, the cemetery gates
The silence, the absent cortege
Mirror only one to stare at me
Showing its same empty image
That figure of despair
Hate personified in first person
So easy to make it go away
Slit of wrist, noose a twist
Mind saturated to bursting point
Thoughts at what I have missed
Things others have ten fold
I close my eyes, the wall
Sighs relief. Even bricks
Are against me

Natural Decay

Slice me
Dice me
Insecticide
Cut me
Bruise me
My destruction lord
Darkness, Bleakness
Reign over me
Empathy or Apathy
My soul still screams
Suicide - nature
Natural decay
The rot, your lot
Nothing

Negative Forces Play

You strike me down
Though I shall return to my feet
You destroy my soul
Though I shall rebuild twice as high
You burn my heart
Though I shall extinguish the flames

Come and feast on the broken bodies you create
The weak cower under what you dictate
Their homes razed to the ground
Lives deleted like spelling mistakes
Come and drink the cascading river of blood
Sink on down in the putrefaction,
Drown in the stagnant misery
The milk of human kindness, leaves a sour taste
Polluted; infected by the hatred for all
Shards of lies, smash through the mind
Splitting all traces of reason into oblivion
Hate leaches feeling, sucks the emotions dry
Feeds on what we are; laughs at what we become
Forcing us against the wall, killing us like a war
Head on the block, say your last prayers, it wins
Every time, Anytime, Overtime, it won’t stop
Take everything away, you take it all away
Greed looks on with green eyes glowing
Negative forces play tonight
Break the bones of those they tease
The weak crumble into scattered splinters
Dust blown in the wind far away
The negative forces play tonight

Emotions Prison

Solitary confinement
Execution awaits
Locked up deep inside
Soul Suffocates
Feelings never used
Lost in the maze
Yearn to break loose
Fade into the haze
Feel the life sentence
Emotion never break free
Wanting to escape
Maybe, one day eventually

For The Night

Darkness, Blinding blackness
Envelope all that lives
Silence, Mournful silence
Covers all noises heard
Starlight, Moonlight – the only light
Glimmer far above. so insignificant, so alone
Night air gently plays with the skin
Owl hums its sombre call
The sun, laid to rest
Its colourful funeral procession
A million weeping mourners cry
This is the hour of rest, where living ends
The earth sleeps, yet the mind stays awake
Feel so small, worthless
In the whole scheme of things pointless
Like the universe, like life

Lifes Painting

Life is like a painting
Everything starts a blank canvas
Everything ends a mess of colour
Let the acid drip down
Cleanse a winding path
Make it blank again

The world is like a gallery
Full of exhibits, all crying for attention
On the outside – all colourful, all splendour
Yet deep on the inside
Hides the misery, locked behind
Their fake portraits

Emotions like picture frames
Surrounding life, keeps it together
The stronger the frame, the weaker the picture
You can’t see my paint
The frames too big

Moth

Moth
Gently flying through the night air
Wings pounding a gentle rhythm
Icon of hate, its majesty disregarded
Yet held within the aesthetic wing
Dejection renders a scar all too clear
In a world devoid of light
The moth is alone, alienated, lost
Its cries falter, no one wants to hear
Rejection beats the tiny shell
The bronze messenger falls to earth
Its hopes confiscated, snatched away
Into the grave, the moth lays
Into eternity, nothing bruises anymore

Ode to Death

Black horse procession leads the way
Solemn mutterings from passerbys
Alone and cold, Church bell strike
They ring, They cry, the call to die
Solitary black rose - the epitaph
Open grave like open arms
Ready to recieve you with fake emotion
Mourners weep their bitter tears
Cry not for you, but their own demise
For the journey, they all too must take
Left alone where nightmares reign
Garden of death - Wreaths of nettles lie

Aching Angel

Black eye mascara tear
Stain on your bruised cheek
Night illumination show scars
Beneath the skull of the moon
Fragile blossom curls up
They can't hurt you anymore
Red rose petal falls to earth
Like the last drop of blood
Another angel sleeps tonight
Rest in a marble tomb

Suicide Notes

Suicide notes
Write bored housewife frail
Replace "I Luv U's" as classroom mail
The persecuted that cannot avail
That cannot win, Though never lose
That will die, But never fade
Words spoken stronger then any voice
Symbolic ending, the curtian drawn
Pain poured down as as ink
Its beauty, a halo, scared so deep
For all to see

House Of Despair

Welcome to the house of despair
Welcome to agonies lair
Come hang your senses by the door
Come inside and be my guest

See that guy in the corner
Always blue, forever mourner
Lived his whole life in misery
Broken and beaten since he was three

See the boy with the broken crown
watch him cower, cry and frown
Bullied and tortured in his school
Yet hes the one made the fool

See the girl with bruised fists
The red ring around her wrists
Noone seems to understand her
Only will in the funeral parlour

See that lady in the red
Saw her family all shot dead
Now she sits all day alone
Yet still waits by the telephone

See the woman who was violated
She shouldn't be the one hated
Now too scared to see the sky
Just sits inside and rather cry

Welcome to the house of despair
Everyone ignores, noone cares
All walk past, get on with lives
As I start passing out the knives

I

I am the blackhole of the galaxy
Who smears sh*t on advertisment boards
Who forces bleach into junkies veins
Who spray paints "F*CK YOU" on gallery art
Who laughs at the new mound of burial soil
Who cracks the whip in the slave encampment
Who sacrifices for a worthless empty cause
Who burns all monuments down to ash
Who would sell is soul for more blood money
Who would sell his family for selfish gain
For I am the blackhole of the galaxy
I am the plague that clots your lungs
I am the sick dying infants tear
I am the war torn massacred of Africa
I am the homeless bleeding cold
I am the corpse pit of the persucuted nation
I am the darkness of the blind mans vision
I am the ice that freezes hearts
I am the newborns cry of the unknown
I am the bullet that shatters skulls
I am the deathbed melody of the cancer old
I am the stain on your precious mind
I am the heretic who curses your god
I am the nettle in the bed of roses
I am the blackhole of the galaxy
I am this world

Television Tedium

Televisual lies puked into redundant square eyes
Lounge alter, Pray the images never falter
The world outside does not exist for you
Another documentary? That will fill the void for 30 minutes
The kids seem happy, watch them drool; substitute parent
Hypnotism in Japanese hardware
Mouth ajar, open mind - empty mind?
Leave your intelligence at the door, it's not needed here
We can fill your head with cheap propaganda, useless advertisements
A sense of belonging
A sense you really matter,
"It could be you!", "Are you sitting tight"
Another action packed saturday night
Channel 1 to Channel never ending
It grabs you and turns you and burns you and breaks you so you can't escape
"JUST ANOTHER HALF AN HOUR!" as it leads you through its maze
Twisting your soul, Retina burns
You are as one "I'm yours" it cries
in subtitles
in surround sound, in digital
cinema screen
24/7 snare, daily dose of sedatives in family entertainment
"DONT MISS OUT!"
Another cheesy smile, plastic programme
Quiz show blues to while away the time
Black and white to colour to in your face to in your head
The fake reality takes you away
Better than life
This window to your perfect world
Nightmare in pixels